On January 31, it occurred to me that it had been one year since I left my corporate job to stay at home with Layla. That 12 months was the absolute quickest (and arguably most life-changing) of my life. It’s difficult to even get back into that mindset I was in at the time because so much has changed. I felt so anxious, so unsure if I was making the right decision. Even though I wanted to stay home with my little one, I struggled with the thought of losing my identity, losing adult-time, and losing all I had worked towards since graduating college.
And of course, one year later, I can say that all of that anxiety was for naught. This past year has been such a blessing and has really given me perspective on my life and career. Although I enjoyed having a job, it was not a career that I particularly loved. And now that I’ve been home, I’ve realized how much it didn’t define me or even fulfill me. On the other hand, I feel passionately about being able to stay home and be with Layla on a daily basis. That is fulfilling to me.
Every day is different, and just with a job outside of the home, some are more difficult than others. But I can wholeheartedly say that my worst days at home with Layla couldn’t beat the good days at the office. (Although I do miss the monthly office cupcake parties. I might need to make those happen 😉 )
So in case there are any mamas out there that are struggling with the same anxieties as I was one year ago, I’m here to say that it may not be the easiest job, but it can be really great, fun, and fulfilling.